Monday, May 11, 2020

Life Lessons from My First Marathon Run

I'm not a Runner
If I go up and down my family tree asking everyone to repeat the above sentence, they would do it merrily. So the point is, running is not in my genes. Atleast I can safely say that no one has yet proved it to be otherwise. 

      Of course that doesn't stop me from wishing to take part in a Marathon! Every year I make it point to declare that I'll be running the 11 kms run. At times when I I'm more pumped I add another 10 kms and make it 21. Unfortunately, all these years I kept finding myself in the medical team rather than in the Run! Last year I was sick and tired of repeating this and instead of declaring to everyone I went ahead and registered for the 11kms run. 

Lesson 1: It all starts with a wish, but actually begins when u make a strong decision. 

      When the day arrived, I had a total practice of running 4kms for 6 days in the last 2 months, in no way enough to give me the confidence of completing the 11 kms. The race was to start in an hour and I had no plans of finishing it. 5 minutes before the race started I said to myself that I'll not quit, even if I have to finish the race crawling. Just as the bell rang and the race started, I told myself something strange. I told myself that I'll finish the race running. No walking, No crawling. Only Running! 

       I kept my effort level at 2/10. Kept it slow but steady. Thoughts: "It won't be bad if I cover even half of it "

      We had to take a U turn from the half line and for some reason the half line just refused to appear in sight! I kept running. Slow but steady. The half line appeared. I couldn't wait to reach it! 

      As soon as I took the U turn from the half line I saw hundreds of runners who were behind me trying to reach the point which I had already crossed! Something changed inside me, again, and I made the decision to run the other half and claim the entire 11kms.

Lesson 2: How do you drink an entire lake? One glass at a time! 

      I knew since I was not physically prepared to complete 11kms, the onus to finish this race lied on my mind. I kept repeating to myself ''I can do it, I'll finish this'' almost like a mantra. As I crossed the 7kms mark some negative thoughts started trying to find cracks in my resolution. "You've never run before. Your father has never run. I'm sure even your grandfather wouldn't have run 11kms. It's just not in your genes"
Fortunately I had read enough positive mental attitude books to be aware of the intentions of these doubts. Break my strength. I invoked the almighty. "God I don't care who I am or what my genes are. This is between you and me. Nothing else matters! I'm determined to finish this. Please see me through!" I experienced a strange connection with the universe. It recharged my batteries. Those doubts were taken care of for good and I found myself on track again. 

Lesson 3: Where you are going is more important than where you're coming from

Lesson 4: Your mind has too much of ego to blindly believe in you everytime you ask it to. It needs a higher power to whom it can submit

      We crossed the last turn and there were 2 more kilometers to go. At the turn there were atleast 100 people, most of them kids cheering the runners.They kept shouting, 'You can do it, I can do it, We can do it!' There enthusiasm was palpable and that was like a strong wind helping me cruise ahead! 

Lesson 5: Those kids, those people had nothing to do with my resolve. They were still cheering for me. Cheering for us! They were probably cheering for the human spirit! They were probably seeing themselves in us!

      I kept at it and eventually finished the run! It was a proud moment for me and I did what everyone does, posted it on social media for some self glorification.
Of course I was confined to my bed for the next 10 hours and every movement was accompanied with excruciating pain! But was it worth it? You bet! 

Lesson 6: Don't be a fool and practice well before you run! 






Sunday, May 3, 2020

Shalom?

Shalom! 
That's the first word that came to my mind while writing this blog post. What's that? I'll have to find out and figure a way to fit it in! 
It has been ages since I cleaned the dust off this blog. I wonder how it'd smell if it were a diary or a book. May be it would smell of nostalgia. For now, I'm just thankful that it's not a book. Why? Going by my record, I wouldn't be able to find it after these many years... 

Let's look for Shalom on Google(Opening the browser, typing the word 'Shalom'. Enter. Eyes wide open!) 

Lo and Behold!! 

Shalom is a Hebrew word meaning peace, harmony, wholeness, completeness, prosperity, welfare and tranquility and can be used idiomatically to mean both hello and goodbye. Wikipedia

I couldn't imagine a word so small yet encompassing such a huge and wide range of positive emotions! 
I start to write my blog after ages and go with the first word that comes to my mind only to find that there could not be a better word to start writing! 

What does peace, harmony, wholeness, completeness, prosperity, welfare and tranquility mean? What is the essence of these words. Some words don't have meanings, they have feelings. Yet you can't feel them until you know what they mean! (You might want to read that again). Got it? You'd think so. To get the true essence of these words you'd have to have experienced them. 
And how in the world would you get that experience? That is life. It teaches through experiences. For most part of it, it takes you through a roller coaster ride of situations, emotions...feelings. And then it let's you decide which emotions, which feelings you'd want to take along and which ones you'd rather leave behind. Most of your actions are tuned based on these learnings. Avoid Pain, Crave Pleasure! 

Keep learning more, keep trying to adjust the sails, until you come closer to the perfect balance, until you get corrected towards the perfect direction.
What I have learned is, the best place to be is sans all avoidance, sans all cravings.
Nirvana! 
No I haven't experienced it yet, I've only known this to be truer than the other theorems. May be when I do, you'd find a better post! 
Hope my rust clad thoughts made some sense, in the first, the second or the third reading. 

For now, 
Shalom


Sunday, March 11, 2012

Imbibing Neuro-Rehabilitation

 I'm working on two stroke patients currently,one of which started coming to the clinic just a couple of days back. The other,an year old case of left hemiplegia has been coming since the last 2 months. 


In the latters case, the voluntary control in the upper limb is 1. It remains in the typical synergistic posture. Spasticity being grade 3 on the Mod. Ashworth's scale, hampers passive ROM of the wrist and finger. The carpus instability adds to this problem as they remain subluxated volarly because of the unbalanced overactivity of the long flexors. This has lead to the overstretching of the long extensors, which may be a contributing factor to the weakness. A cockup static splint is required to ease the position of the hand to the functional position. There is some activity seen in the upperlimb extensors when the patient is asked to extend the arms from a 90 degree shoulder abduction and 90 degree elbow flexion toextension towards the opposite ASIS. This activity is only seen in supine position thus indicating two possibilities. Either the activity seen is  due to TLR or due to the proximal stability in the supine positions which aids proper chanelisation of the tone.
There is no activity seen in the sitting position even on appropriate stabilization of the proximal structures. 
The question is.whether to accept the role of TLR and continue strengthening the extensors in supine or start with some other approach. But the former looks more convenient at this moment considering the chronicity of the condition.

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

money matters

Its such a confusional state when u dont know your exact status. Whether you are a student or an employee. Whether you gotta earn or save,and for that matter,also spend! I find myself in a similar state right now. The money is coming, rather waiting to come. But I dont know if I have to concentrate on earning or save time and study for the postgraduate entrance tests coming up. Managing both is not a big deal but doin nothing is a felony! And coming back to spending,when you start earning, this simple task looks so difficult! Calling it a task in itself shows the change in the outlook. But this too can be managed. Appropriate investment plans can ensure a steady income. But with so many things taking up the thought space, it becomes difficult to concentrate on investing. An organised approach is the solution. If a certain amount is put aside for investing every month and good analysis of the areas of investment done, the ball can be kept rolling, even amidst an unavoidable spending chaos.

Sunday, February 13, 2011

Moving Ahead, Still Staying Back...


Hate it...
When things are gonna happen
And you want them to happen
You want to speed up the time
Sway the pendulum faster...

Keep running along,playing along
You lose track of the small things
Which keep fallin from your pockets

And then when u arrive at the gates
You hear distant echoes
Someone's voice,some footsteps,some laughter, some tears
And turning back you see...parts of you life, scattered on the path,beckoning you.

Wish time would stop
Wish things would slow down
Wish I coud stay a bit longer
Wish we could shout some more,laugh some more,
Hold a few more hands,gather a few more hugs
And then put them all together in our apron pockets 
And carry 'em along

Hate it
When you want things to move ahead, still stay back...




Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Old Photographs

These are some of the photos which I took from my first cam,a Canon A470. The tragedy is that I lost my cam on the very day when I was awarded the best photography award in the college. 





These photos will always remain very close to me...

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Today...

Today I did something,
Many things!

Felt love,
felt hatred.

Experienced power and
Helplessness.

Laughed with joy and
Cried in sorrow.

Today I did something different.
Things which I never did before.

Walked for miles
In the 3 o'clock sun.
Listening to bird sngs,
in voices never heard before.

I felt a new freshness
After getting dead tired.
Meeting new beings,
weaving new thoughts.

But,my dear...
This lovely, different Today
is worser than the routine,
If I don't share it with you...